LoSt In ReAiLtY

2006-09-13T02:17:00.000-07:00

Yeah.. praise God.. woo... so so so so happy lar.. i pass all my subject thou grades not v good.. but still i no need take supp paper... thanks for all those who prayed for mi etc..woo...happy... sha la la la.. it's so nice to be happy..woo!!!

2006-09-03T22:49:00.000-07:00

Woo... holidays..hmm... holiday means more time to slack..haha.. n get serious in other things..haha.. was packin my room yesterday n woo... the desktop had been transfer to my room..cos sis got a laptok from dad... hmmm... i wan my guitar!!! haha

well today woke up early in the morning n meet bro pierre at yishun for BS..hmm.. meiping was there too.. den she gave mi one lesson den bro pierre another lesson.. Man i'm totally convicted by wad bro pierre say lar.. i really got to move out of my comfort zone n really turn up my spiritual gear to 4 liao..hmm... run run run.. i'm runnin after You Jesus..

Yeah got promoted to OM...yes i'm part of this big family... OM means more responsibility liao means i needa do more things... yeah.. i wanna rise up to be a cg helper n cg guitArist...

Let's get serious with our walk with god!!

2006-08-29T08:47:00.000-07:00

finally exam over.. can relax.. well best was on sunday.. had two chalet.. CG n TY chalet... cool lar. celebrated Brother pierre n granny cal bday..haha... den bro pierre proposa(spellin) to sister von... woo.. so cool.. den we like as them kiss... etc..wahah... so happy for brother pierre...

WEll gettin bit bored of bloggin.. but will try to blog as much..haha..

2006-08-25T10:26:00.000-07:00

GERS BE CAREFUL...THERE'S THIS CRAZY GUY GOIN AROUND ADD PPL IN MSN
[ianwright_81@hotmail.com]..well he's like a despo guy.. named jimi... he add mi in msn n thought i was a ger.. he's so despo lookin for a gf.. stupid despo guy...

2006-08-24T05:15:00.000-07:00

Grr!!! tml is judgement day!!! sob sob.... tml gonna be my first time takin main exams in poly..wahaha..Hmm...did some studies in the week.. well wad can i say.. math is the first paper.. gonna do my best.. did some calculation... should be able to get b...hmm... hope tat the difficulty of the paper is like past year..den sure get b..haha.. Hmm.. hope tat tml won't be as sick as the past days..if not.. i die liao ar..hmmm..wahaha.. gonna do somemore paper later.. chao..

2006-08-19T08:36:00.000-07:00

After so so so so long.. i finally fall sick again.. and wad worst was to fall sick at the wrong place wrong time.. Grr!!! Dr AR Bernard is here.. den only manage to go for one svc.. friday, that's de day i started feelin sick.. then on sat.. fever.. flu.. cough.. all come..wa!! sian.. den feelin so weak.. must drag myself to move...

Hate to be sick... so many things cannot do.. hai~~ cannot afford to fall sick man.. exams startin nx week... STRESS!!! AGRRR!!!!

STUDY!!! STUDY!!! STUDY!!!

2006-08-14T09:25:00.000-07:00

It just so great to know wad God can do in your life.. so glad so glad i came to know God when i'm still 'young'..hmm.. Just can't imagine how's life without God.. Thanks Mabel for bringing me to church to know so many wonderful thing..Have a wonderful spiritual Family.. So many ppl supporting me.. Thanks Brother Pierre for all this wonderful time..
Jeremy,don.. such great brother to be with
Chirs-always disturb me but show lot of concern to me too
Mong,ber-two great wonderful sister dat help mi thru my walk. Mong is like a 'Mum'.. thx mong,ber a great sister that guide me..thou u mayb younger that me.. but thank you
Regina,matt,ping- thought they might not speak much.. but they do care alot..thanks
And of course my leader, brother pierre.. You're just too great... so happy to be part of e family

Jesus-My best Friend
Holy spirit-A great Helper in my life
God-What a faithful Father

Halleujah...my life have been turned upside down.. but it's for e good.. woo.. so happy..

A prayer to accept or reaffirm your relationship with Jesus Christ:
Father, I'm coming home. Please make me your child. I turn from my sin. I accept your forgiveness made possible through Jesus Christ by his death and resurrection. I place my faith and trust in Jesus alone. I receive him as my Savior and Lord. I want to follow and serve you. Let today be the beginning of my new journey as your child and a member of your family. Thank you for making a way for me to come home. In Jesus name I pray Amen.

Nothing Will Ever Separate You From His Love - Romans 8:38

Thank you abba father, my daddy God

2006-08-14T09:23:00.000-07:00

My child

You may not know me, but I know everything about you. Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise up. Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways. Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image. Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your being. Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring. Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived. Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation. Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake, for all your days are written in my book. Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live. Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb. Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were born. Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me. John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love. 1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on you. 1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child and I am your Father. 1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father ever could. Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father. Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand. James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your needs. Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been filled with hope. Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting love. Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore. Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you. Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession. Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul. Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous things. Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me. Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires. Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine. Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager. 2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you. Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart. Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes. Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth. Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus. John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed. John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being. Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you. Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your sins. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled. 2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you. 1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love. Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me. 1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you from my love again. Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. Luke 15:7
I have always been Father, and will always be Father. Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…Will you be my child? John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you. Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad.

Almighty God

2006-08-13T07:09:00.000-07:00

Well something i live once u make a mistake you'll nv be able to make it up for your whole life..
The feeling of losing someone close to you is never a good thing.. so sad that someone close to me had left my side.. how i long to have her back.. but i guess it's impossible since things had come to a point of no return.. Why do i have to get so emo whenever my exams are around the corner.. hai~~

God oh God take a hold of me..God i need your mercy and grace to see me thru..God give me strength.. help mi oh Father God...

2006-08-12T07:39:00.000-07:00

God nv nv nv fail to let mi know that he's always there for mi durin the bad n good time.. My God is an awesome God.. thou my life gonna be different without her anymore.. hmm.. but i still so glab that i Have My God with mi..

My first love you'll always be
My first breathe you the life in me
My first joy the world cannot take from me
My covenant with you Jesus.

Man this is the new song 'First' written by church lar.. so nice.. i love the chorus
so much.. God just speak thru the song n his presense just fall down on me.. his love his touch his grace... So Great so great

Your love falls down over me.. halleujah..Gonna have a closer relationship with God.. no more playin around n stuff.. get serious n do more things to glorify His Kingdom.. Halleujah...

I Love you JESUS!!!

2006-08-08T10:05:00.000-07:00

Today all the fun was spoil n have no mood to post thanks to.. someone.. dunno who pick pocket mi at Raffles place MRT!!! grr... first time.. IC lost...arrr!!!! ANGRY N SAD!!!!

2006-08-06T03:58:00.000-07:00

Woo.. happy birthday city harvest..Woo... today had lots of fun durin svc lar.. the break dancin is so so so cool.. the entire thing was good.. praise n worship.. woo.. woo..woo.. den got sing national day song.. stand up for singapore.. happy bday too to singapore my homeland..

After svc everyone was like.. hungry..haha.. den we went to marina square eat.. after dat.. only left mong n chris.. best lar boht of them eso chris.. give mi tips n advice on wad to buy lalala.. u rock man brother.. just had lots of fun shoppin with u n mong lar..haha.. althought mong was like wasting or time..haha.. just jokin..

Spent $120.10 on a jacket, two t-shirt, n a pant...haha.. coolness lar.. Starting to like shoppin!!!wahaha..

2006-08-03T08:28:00.000-07:00

Hai.. things are just not goin so smoothly after all... hai~~ gettin so sick n tired again.. man.. i seriously don wan lar.. everytime i'm like happy at one moment yet just in a twist of a sec.. something just come like dat.. n i'm like piss off.. n sad.. wad the hell lor.. for eg yesterday soccer.. man.. scold mi for wad.. i'm not a soccer player wad.. so i make mistake ppl understand... den u act pro like dat.. pattern here n there... den y is it tat u nv think it's your fault too?? ass!!!!!!

This week was not so good after all.. only yesterday the soccer in the rain.. hmm.. playin in the rain... walkin in the rain... brings back lots of memories.. hmm.. forget bout it man...den recently 'YOU' hai~~ really don feel like carin for u anymore.. last time i once said i don wanna care bout u anymore.. den u say r u sure... y n stuff like dat..hai~~ i really dunno wad to do man.. u always make mi worried n stuff like dat.. hai~~ can't anything be done to improve our relationship?? or mayb i should let go?? hmm... i care bout nothing not... Stupid.. tml still got test.. hai~~ main exams comin... man.. time is passin so so so fast.. now is aug liao.. damm..

i must really do smoething great of wad lar.. don wanna spend 2006 just like dat.. 2006 up till now.. SUCK!!! worse den 2005... hai~~~ new year new problem.. darn... shit shit shit... GRR!!!!

2006-08-01T05:38:00.000-07:00

Yes today was kind of ok lar.. i pass my graded lab.. just pass.. from actually gonna b 0 turn to 15/30..wahha thank God.. haha.. lesson was as usual bored.. can't believe i fail this quiz by half a mark... i was laugh like siao..haha...

Lunch was at this coffee shop.. hmm... no bad the food...haha.. best thing was in class dave kana bullied by han n becky.. wahaha.. poor guy..haha...

Miss my baby!!!haha.. miss ya...haha... tml no sch.. power lor.. it's soccer time again..haha.. i'm gonna slack bah..haha.. wanna slack slack den tan tan body..wahaha... yeah..

2006-07-30T09:26:00.000-07:00

Wooo... love the presence of God... love the way God has move in my life.. Great is the Lord n worthily to b praise .. Yesterday service was really a bang.. too awesome.. so great that i'm so free... feelin so great n free... the blood of Jesus Christ was shed for us for one purpose.. I'm just so happy tat i'm a christian n i have God in my life.. life will nv be the same without him..

Thank God each day i'm gettin close to who u wan mi to be :D yeah.. i'm so happy my relationship with my baby is gettin so much much much better.. love her lots..haha..

2006-07-25T09:03:00.000-07:00

Am i askin too much from u?? i don wan this kind of life... one moment i'm so good to you.. so close to ypu..yet another moment.. we like driftin apart...hmm... wad can i do??

Well..this week didn't start off well at all... thanks to the bunch of ass in my class..wahaha... they totally spoil my day man... althought at time they seem good..hai~~ overrall they sux..haha.. but some don lar..haa... man.. just wish i can kick their asses n really show them my anger.. man if this happen... it's not gonna be good at all.. and today i almost bash up one of them.. haha..

2006-07-20T06:35:00.000-07:00

Today... was a really tiring day..damm sleepy lor.. den after sch went to play soccer.. haha.. b the goal keeper.. but i sux lar.. den later i change.. dunno play wad position lar.. but i run damm fast lor... chase the ball up n down.. haha.. cos it's the street court.. so small..haha

But the soccer did not turn out good... some pasir ris sec guy.. stupid lar.. step my friend leg.. haha.. he so stupid... my friend like so angry push him den shout shout.. wanna fight.. yeah.. he's a gangster gangster type..haha.. den after the game.. someone.. dunno is a guy or ger.. wanna act hero ask my friend wad happen but once again.. the i guess is butch..haha.. got screw up by my friend..haha... he cool lar... ah beng..wahaha...

2006-07-18T05:59:00.000-07:00

Arrr!!!! today sway sway sway... took e stupid taxi which has 2 extra charge..as i know not all taxi have it yet.. so i just pick up one taxi den realise.. shoot 2 dollars more...grr... den lesson.. lab... sway.. got trick my e teacher.. he's so idoit lor.. den the graded lad i minus 2 marks... hai~~ lunch time... i pay 3.50 for this nasi brani.. which the portion so little.. den must sway thing was when i was cuttin the mutton.. the mutton just flew out.. left only the rice... grrr... paid 3.50 just to eat rice??? sian ar...

2006-07-17T03:56:00.000-07:00

Yes today was real fun.. when out to eat with classmate.. den we bought a soccer ball n go back for lesson.. best thing was they played soccer along the corri.. haha.. coolness..Had this suticad quiz.. so bloddly lame..haha.. den we went to the field there for soccer.. man.. so long.. this is the first time i enjoyed soccer.. man.. and i'm the first one to score for my time.. yes i did it..haha.. Den my team mate n the other ppl keep say do it for 'her'..wahaha.. but did i real soccer e first goal 4 her??wahaha.. just so glab today i enjoy myself.. can't wait 4 wed..wahaha

2006-07-14T09:32:00.000-07:00

Woo... today was fun fun fun... when to wala wala n chill with my cousin..haha
wwnt to drink..haha.. even b4 i reache there i was bit giddy.. dunno y.. den start drink n i suddenly came alive.. woo... den at 9 plus. went to the beside pub harry's.. man.. gt new singer down there... not wendy anymore..haha.. the new singer was woo.. hot..haha.. but den she sing too near the mic.. den can't really hear her.. n o'm like the only one cheerin up... clapin n shoutin..haha..

Best man brink this 75% liquiuor(spellin) drink.. my throat was burnin..haha... but it's best lar.. some more is shooter.. one shot finish kind..wahaha... fun lar.. totally coolnes..haha.. yet i'm not drunk n the rest was drunk..haha... i'm a bloody alcholic man..wahaha... come on... challenge mi to drinkin man..wahaha.. if it's free i'll be there..wahaha

2006-07-13T08:50:00.000-07:00

Darn... evening was damm sucky.. didn't have a pleasent evening after all..when to chill with 'them' n i was totally sucky.. i was late... den they all like so F***...WTH.. attitude.. Actually we went to play ball lar.. but their attitude..hai~~ at first i reach they were play the STUPIDEST GAME!!! SOCCER!! i hate it.. yet i was drag to play.. den when we play basketball.. man. they act like kids..'F'.. i was so piss off dat now i startin to hate Basketball.. thanks to them.. ASS!!!!
thanks to u all.. i think that basketball is now a trash game.. HOw nice of u all.. ASS!!!

Then we sat n chat but i was totally lost in their conversation..i was so DUH!! like i dunno wad to say.. they talk bout some stupid games..grr!!! Thank GOd for smt call hp.. i can sms ppl..wahaha..

they i was like totally silence.. den just gazed at the sky..lalala.. man the clouds so nice..wahaha..den sit at the bus stop waitin for bus.. man... i dunno y just think here n there... then i was like so lost..dunno wad in the world happened..hmm...

die lar.. i'm so depresse in a sense den now i hate the thing i like n i'm so piss off with those i once called buddies.. but Thank God there's still a few good one.. better one helpin mi out.. thanks ar.. u all know who u r..wahaha..

GRRR!!!! TP SUX!!!!haha

2006-07-12T23:39:00.000-07:00

Today wasn't a pleasent day.. stomach ache like crazy..haha.. Lesson was real bored.. i do work 4 30 min..den slack 1.5h..wahaha. den it the bus i was suddenly struck by the past.. thinkin of my past n etc.. was really glad that i am wad i am now..hmm.. thought i still hold on to some of my past.. but i'll learn to let go.. :D...

2006-07-12T06:24:00.000-07:00

Yes back to blog again..wahaha..yesterday make friend wll one real cool lady.. Diana.. haha.. well don really know her well but still gettin along..wahaha..

man this feel days i feel so lively.. woo.. can do all things man.. but i still hate studies..haha...yes.. friday mayb goin to thailand.. super happy lar.. den can shop shop shop..haha.. i'm gonna shop till siao..wahaha.. yes thailand here i come.. hmm.. if got nice things i'll buy 4 u all friends de..wahaha...

2006-07-06T06:22:00.000-07:00

Man...too much things happenin last n this week..hmm.. Grandaunt pass away on thursday.. this hurt mi lots..hmm.. i miss the time we had together when young...how she will pamper us..stuff..:'(.. but now she's gone..

Life has been tough on mi this past few days.. havin damm seriously mood swing...mood has been like on a roller coaster ride.. so much things happenin.. feelin so uncomfortable.. feelin lost at time.. hmm.. depression again?? ha..

sometime i'm like totally lost among my peers.. i'm like so...hai~~ dunno lar.. den now.. slowin gettin use leadin a loner life.. hmm.. hate some of my peers... n i mean it seriously hate.. wanna kill them.. wad's wrong with liking someone.. hello.. asshole... just can't stand the things they are doin.. keep sayin tat they know wad they're doin.. they know my feelings.. blah blah.. but they just F***ing don lor.. BUNCH OF HYPOCRITE!!!!

Just a bunch of hypocrite and ass dude.... darn... i'm so pissoff.. i'm always the one gettin say by others.. sian.. this is gettin no way...

Seriously i'm on the verge on depression man.. i'll just smile my tears away.. n act dumb like wad ONE OF YOU SAY... assholes....

This broken down world is drivin mi mad.. n the light i used to see so bright seems to darken now.. I'm sinkin into the darkness.. But i know.. He's still there holdin me.. wipin off my tears.. abba father...my abba father..

let mi be lost in your presence and father i need your strength.. father... Father...

2006-06-29T01:57:00.000-07:00

i'm gettin real sick of sch..haha... dunno y.. most of the time i'm slackin.. day dreamin.. or smsin..haha... tat audre say wanna msg mi in class cos she slack alot too.. but turn out she sms a few only..haha.... gers always like dat de.. bluff ppl....i should say pretty gers..haha..always bluff ppl..haha..

man can't believe tat my stupid sec sch is usin my pic in ncc for some ncc values thing...
resilient i think... tat's wad my junior say..haha... when i not in tat sch den use my pic.. must charge them money..wahaha... but cool sia.. now the whole school can know mi...wahaha... den i go back like superstar...haha.. tml i'm makin a trip back n c..wahaha...

2006-06-28T08:05:00.000-07:00

man finally.... my com is back to normal... got a new Cpu..woo... new monitor.. almost everything is new... thank God for all this wonderful technology..wahaha..

Stupid sch term start liao... hai~~so sick n tired of sch man..haha.. the mood is not there yet... n i can't believe it.. it's a bad start.. first day late... second day... almost... today.. pon my first lec..haha.. man... i'm becoming bad..wahaha..

Yeah so happy... that Granny Cal said she still b with E13 for 3 more weeks.... den off she go... For project O, dancer cg..hmm... gonna miss her man when she's gone.. but i'm happy for her.. so cool man.. dance dance dance..haha... Granny if u're readin this u better do..haha.. teach mi dance lar..haha...

Mood hasn't been good this few days.. dunno y.. but my mood just sux... hai~~ PMS? haha.. like wad granny always say.. my tat one come.. oh man..haha... I'm a guy how can?? wahaha...

Truth n lies...

2006-05-30T05:35:00.000-07:00

What's the truth n wad's the lies?? can anyone tell mi? haha.. i'm not talkin bout the da vinci code..haha...i'm takin bout..hmmm...

man finally have the time to update.... crap man... last week whole week test.. den over the weekend so many thing happened... friends fight... friend cried...bla bla bla... N the worst... my friends disturb mi to the core...Grr!!!

is it wrong to show more concern to the oppsite sex?? man... my friend they all disturb mi say i like her.. bla bla bla bla...Grr....

was so sway... monday when i step into sch... man... they start say.. woo... bryck like rebecca.. den say wad if anyone bully becky, bryck sure stand up for her..bla bla bla... makin all those comment... then very sway goin home i took wrong bus with friend... den he say smt like this "walao wad's wrong with you man... i must tell becky to teach her hubby how not to talk wrong bus"....

Then today.. worse... they start with this BLR(bryck love rebecaa) thing..den wad B square(becky n bryck-y) den erm some say wad.. man.. we got the story of the year man.. oh my.. wad's happenin man... hai~~~

But do i really have feelin for her?? hmm... dunno leh.. hmmm... or am i just denyin the truth n acceptin the lies?? hmm.... i dunno...

2006-05-18T06:13:00.000-07:00

~~~~~~FALLEN~~~~~

once again.. i had fallen... now to a deeper pit... even deeper den the previous pit... i tired to climb out but to no avail.. i'm stuck... my heart had sunk... i startin to feel numb... startin to feel weak.. startin to cry...

I call out to u.. but u nv answer... i pray bout it but it did not happen... i try to die.. but it will nv happen... from den on i know you're gone... 4 good..

i tried to forget bout u.. i tried my best but the more i keep thinkin bout u.. man.. this is S**t.. y is it tat u don realize?? S**T!!!! Loving u is the greatest mistake i even did... but forgetin u is the most painful thing i'm gonna do..

Standin at the crossroad i don know wad to do.. to the left or the right?? i fall on my knees n start to tear... den suddenly i heard a very familiar voice.. i look up.. i saw Him... He took my hands n embrace mi in his arms.. at first i was happy.. but i did not know wad happened... i lose grip of Him n i fell...

Fallen... there was i lyin at the crossroad again... i pick myself up n now i'm all alone.. den a car was comin at a fast speed n knock mi down..

Fallen.. i'm lyin at the hospital bed.. i can't speak i can't move anymore.. all i can do is to c my tears slow streamin down my cheecks... Nv will i be able to c u again.. N nv will ibe able to love u again.. N nv will i be able to forget u..

Slowing... days passed.. n finally.. my heart stop beatin... i take a closer look at my heart n i see lots of name in it.. my family... God.. Christ... but i just can't find yours.... i look even closer n deep deep deep down at the corner i saw your name... with den i realize.. i'll nv be able to forget u.. as u meant alot to mi.. but the biggest mistake was nv to let u know how i feel bout you...

Nevertheless in wadever u do.. i'll be your angel.. guildin u, helpin u, lovin u..........

N my name will nv b mention in your presence anymore.....

2006-05-16T01:34:00.000-07:00

Was really bz the past week with poly stuff.. hate the projects... first year only got project..haha.. over the week end the best was svc.. pastor phil... cool man... great man of God... if u wanna know more bout wad happened... plz log in to www.chc.org.sg... haha... or http://www.dance-junkie.blogspot.com/... haha.. granny wrote quite a good thing on wad happened.. i'm just lazy to write..

today real sway....first time eatin the eng canteen dumpling... den was so sway.. got 10, three dumplin fell... grr.. den i was super clusmy... dunno y.. man be is because i said something wrong bout granny cal..haha... den like dat.. grrr.. so sway... mayb i'm not fated to eat the dumpling like wad granny saw..haha... man.. granny rocks... haha... can't wait to c her n her team... gettho queen( did i spell correctly?).. haha.. all the best... but.. i stil rock more with my stories.. haha...

2006-05-07T03:42:00.000-07:00

Was really tired this few days cos still not use to poly life..haha... or mayb is bcos durin the holiday i slack too much..haha..
Well sat svc as usually need not say anything.. it's great..haha.. once again nv go fellowship..wahaha...not i don wan but is just dat i company mabel go home..haha..

Man.. today was great... meet up CY, jerome, mil... basketball time..haha... but was kind of sian for the first hr.. cos got ppl play soccer there n it's adults.. hmm adults nowdays cannot think well??haha.. the first group of ppl was kind enough to apologise den they say nvm ask us play her.. but the othe grp.. GRR!! the so called 'leader' came n talk to mi like a gangster..idoit sia.. if i'm not a christian... u gonna be a cry panda liao..haha.. in the end we went to other place n play but all of us still boilin... the best was i saw SM Goh.. he's handsome n tall...haha.. like wad ppl always say.. wa.. u look better in real life den on tv..haha... Well all the way SM Goh... i support u... All the way PAP.. yes!!!

2006-05-05T08:37:00.000-07:00

muachzzz muachzzz muachzz muachZZZZz

MUACHZZZZ... MUACHZZZZ.....MUACHZZZZ......

MUACHZZZZZZZ..........

JUST WANNA SAY JESUS I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

2006-05-03T09:01:00.000-07:00

I know the truth and i'm sad... i feel like cryin but i don wanna cry.. i just wish u all the best... n i'll just stand there at one side.... lookin at you goin... but no matter wad... i just wanna let u know dat deep down inside you're always the one i look upon... n you'll forever be my best pal... i love u.. With the love of Christ.. God bless...

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2006-05-01T06:01:00.000-07:00

~~Bowlin~~
today when for bowling... hmm.. was quiet a pleasent day.. just tat the weather is too hot..haha... need to improve on my bowlin skill if i wanna go sch team..haha..
sian lor.. the sch ruby team called mi n ask mi go for the training...haha.. i know i'm big size but i don like rough sport..wahaha.. no offence to ruby fans..wahaha...
Jeremy so sorry er.. nv company u..wahaha don angry er... haha... n thanks for the love n concern bro.. you rock man..haha.. didn't know you're so kind..wahaha.. jk jk..haha

but bro.. i need time lar... you know lar.. meanwhile let mi be lost in reality..haha.. but dat doesn't mean i'll not do well lor...haha.. i'll stand strong de...it's just tat i can't forget so easily..keke..

2006-04-30T10:00:00.000-07:00

~~BuddieS~~

Woo.... had a great time just now.. was out for a bball game with my two best pal.. jerome n milton..haha... the games was fine but the best best best best part is when we chill out at milton hse n started talking bout Christ..Yeah..i was like the one keep talkin n talkin den they ask Qn den i keep answering..wahaha... yeah they both are christian but young christian..keke.. man didn't know i can actually speak so well to them bout bible stuff... christian stuff.. God is really usin mi..haha

Feel so happy when they tell mi the problem they are facin... hmm.. Yeah i'm a overcomer leh... problem solver.. a counsellor... don play play...wahaha.. Best part was we decided to pray together.. i pray for them.. woo... love prayin for ppl.. i was touched when jerome almost cried out.. Praise God.. he's doin smt great in us.. Halleujah!!!

Everyone with problem come find mi i'll help u solve..wahaah... n ya... hey shavonne if u happen to read my blog...haha.. don be discourage in your situation remember wad i told u.. remember Moses.. remember... the things i'd told u.. ya...

N MR S.A.TAN IF U HAPPEN TO READ THIS TOO...DONNO HOW U DO IT LAR... LET MI TELL U THIS.. I DECLARE WAR WITH YOU!!! I'M GONNA KICK YOUR B**T WITH MY SPIRITUAL WEAPON..WAHAHA... SO IF YOU'RE AFRAID U BETTER BACK OFF... WAHAHA...

LifTiN Up

2006-04-30T00:29:00.000-07:00

Y is it that it's always go hard to love someone?? Y?? Y is it that i put in so much yet i got no return? Y?? someone answer mi!!!!

There i was..alone in the dark.. lost in reality.. den u pick mi up with your precious hands n embrace mi under your wings. Oh wonderful healer.. u healed my broken heart.. wonderful grace...u pick mi n save mi from my sin.. i love u with all my heart... but now u put mi in this situation.. i met this lady... i'm so crazy in love with her...oh Lord wad shall i do??

Everything i c her.. i'm filled with joy..love the way she smile. bright n lovely smile..but sometime with her i need to put on this smile.. dat i can no longer take it anymore.. i wanna let her know i like her.. but i can't.. i can't imagine the outcome.. so i have to put on this smile.. pretending nothings wrong with mi... Sometime i really just wanna let go but.. i can't..i can't.. Oh Lord.. wad shall i do??

Finally...i fall on my knees and I try to pray...In the silence I can hear Him say...The river runs and the river hides...Out to the ocean and under the sky...I promise you, the answer will come...Hold on to patience and watch for the sign...Everything in its time.

Yes the answer will come... hold on to patience n watch for the sign..Lord you'll show me the sign.. yes i know u will.. yes.. for now i'll try not to get carried away bout this.. but it's hard really hard.. but nevertheless.. Greater is he then who is in me.. turstin u i forsake all..so lord.. bring me out of this situation..

Let it Go...

2006-04-30T00:25:00.000-07:00

~~~LeT It Go~~~
I think we've been here before I recognize this place..I've seen the marks of confusion wipe out a single sign of grace And I don't want to play anymore..
Not when the stakes are so high....
So before we circle round once moreI'm gonna lay down,Lay down my pride...
Let it go, let it be..Don't waste all your emotion on this tit-for-tat machine..
Let it go, let it be Let it go....

Hmm.. let it go?? i donno god plz speak to me.. don waste my emotion on it??hmm... i have no idea..hai~~`.....haha

ConFuseD???

2006-04-29T07:07:00.000-07:00

Yes i'm in love but no with you... i don need your love n concern but i need hers... not you but you..haha...I'm serious!!! not u ******************* but u *************** haha...can't u c that i have no feelin 4 u.. so stop bothering me.. can't u c that i like u?? so can u don leave mi alone??
haha...

Yeah.. today sermon was bang bang bang.. cool.. Pastor Mark Conner, great sermon.. haha.. his style of preachin got lots of joke in it.. Yes chiu mong was here 4 svc with us.. great.. chat with her n stuff..haha... but she went off with kun for movie..haha.. the two loving birds...haha...

Went home straight.. cos was not in the mood 4 fellowshipin..haha..sorry guys..haha... man... I LOVE YOU!!!!... i mean i LOVE YOU JESUS!!!!! keke..

I'm SmArT

2006-04-28T07:03:00.000-07:00

Haha today lesson was cool n fun... was like just goin there to waste time only...haha.. went back to BGSS to take my O cert...hai~~ stupid o level..haha.. den happen to saw miss tan den chat with her..haha.. one of her student was there..n miss tan was teachin him a maths...haha.. but i took over her 'jog' n teach the boy..haha.. well i'm smart ok... i'm only lazy..haha.. didn't realize that i could be quite good in teachin a maths...wahaha.. can go be math teacher..wahaha..

Saw kenny poh then was takin bout christian stuff.. man this guy is on fire..haha.. love to c ppl around mi who's very on fire christian..haha.. N man.. saw this ger... last time durin her netball trainin she accidently hurt mi de.. haha.... the stupid ball hit my chest full force :'(....(T.T).. haha.. now i know her school duman sec..hmm.. can go there find her for revenage..wahaha.. just jokin..haha..

Finally a week in poly has pass... can't wait to end first week den second week.. den first semester..wahah..

HoPe

2006-04-27T05:23:00.000-07:00

Was real tired this few day.. sch work is comin in n in...grr...haha... but had lots of fun lar.. ahha. tuesday went for prayer meeting n it was a bang... cool... very nice.. love it when all gather together n pray...

Met Cal for PM oh man... that granny.. wanna box her.. wear the wad sia.. erm... donno call wad lar.. so irriating... so nosiy..haha.. den still keep showin off... Oh ya.. one more thing... her chinese..haha.. CMI..haha

Yesterday was fun... went to sch library with my classmate.. watch the movie changi..haha.. was bout POW in the WW2 but there's so much humor in the show.. so funny..haha.. man. n there's some gay in the show..haha..

Yeah sign up for bowlin cca den must go the trial..haha... hope to get choosen man..haha... sian... so fast tired liao..haha..

~Fresh~

2006-04-24T01:41:00.000-07:00

Wa...today start of poly liao..haha... yeah was fresh...a freshmen...but not fresh in the mind..haha... crazy man.. first lesson do maths liao... my brain cell like few billion of them was killed..haha..but the rest was quite ok... haha... got an early break cos DFUND the teacher say no point teachin if haven go thru lec..haha.. so dismiss..haha...

Man TP is so 'huge' in a way or other..haha.. the canteen food.. hmmm.. 6 out of 10 bah..haha... man.. feel like we're not studyin but more like sho;ppin... cos walk here n there..haha..

Man.. gotta like my course alot.. if not... die die die..haha.. stupid sia.. cut my hair two time yesterday n today...haha.. but luckily not botak cos the guy say cut short with style can liao... no need botak..haha... well think i wanna go sleep liao... so tired..haha.. chao.....

HappY

2006-04-22T08:36:00.000-07:00

Today started off tired but it turn out woo!!! had a great time during service..man..the singer Vicky Vilakazi is powerful..her vocal is so so so so so strong..woo.. take my hat off her...haha.. during the preaching of the word, pastor kong is so funny..haha love him lots..haha.. the way he preach n stuff...woo... cool.. love it..haha..

During fellowship.. hmm nothing much happened really.. only that brother adrain(spelin?) n sister shevonne was there n they crack lame jokes... n here's one.

[ The happiness joke]

Q:Happiness is a guy or ger?
A: Guy. cos of happy meal(male)..

Q:What's happy occupation?
A:Nurse..[haha..so lame]

Q:What's happy surname?
A:Lee..cos happily..

Q:Happy like a guy.so is 'happy' a guy or ger?
A": guy. cos he's a gay( gay means happy too ok?haha)

haha..never know that leaders do have lame jokes too..haha.. den sister shevonne keep disturbing mi..Grrr!!! cos jean was hungry den i offered her my burger but she don wan..n she was shocked..cos i'm like so kind..haha.. I'm ALWAYS GOOD ONE LOR!!! haha..

Den sister shevonne say..wa...who's that ger huh?? come here find u huh?? den see that she c u like her smile so wide..haha... den sister shevonne say..aiyo tianen.. that ger one of your admirer huh? haah... y not u make her dream come true.haha... Oh GOD!!! please lor..haha we're just friends... beside... haha.. shall not say more lar...haha...

Really had lot's of fun today.. Thank god for all this wonderful thing dat happened today.. love u n praise u in Jesus name i pray. Amen!!

Bottled Up

2006-04-21T08:18:00.000-07:00

Yet another blog..haha.. donno this is my how many blog liao..hai~~ always when i'm feelin down or troubled den will wanna blog..man.. Poly gonna start so soon.. and i'm so not lookin forward man. this few days not really doin well. felt so tired n dry. hai~~donno wad's wrong with mi again. My poly classmate are all 'jokers' ans 'slacker'..haha includin mi.. almost everyone pon the freakin lame orientation. n i'm choosen as the class rep..oh gosh.. another burden on my shoulder..Grr!!!

Man i'm kind of really hating BGR liao man. always like dat the..haha.. always have one sided love only..hai~~ no return de..see those nice ger have crush also no use..it's either they attached or they don like u..haha... this is the REALITY man..GRRR!!!!